Laughing at myself...fighting off chronic exhaustion...cynical yet hopeful at times....dodging bullets....looking for signs of intelligence....acquiring precision....hoping for a bullseye...not seeking a guru...subjective states....denying all knowledge...codifying a technique...move to the desert....a recovering mystic....inconsistently pragmatic...in need of a highball...seeking closure....trying to quit...resisting their control...keeping the faith...long time listener, first time caller